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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

entry arrow5:58 PM | The Comings and Goings

Late afternoon, on a Tuesday. You feel the heat of the ending day still bearing down on your skin. The sweat has transformed into a kind of mugginess all over you: oil on the tip of your nose, fumes in the weaves of your shirt. It has been a worthwhile day. You took meds earlier, after all, to make sure it becomes such. And for once you do not feel tired. Now it is close to night, and finally you can allow yourself to relax, just a bit. There is much to celebrate, you think: the second day of school has ended, and you have sailed through it with a fortitude you find surprising. Who knew there was breathing space between negotiating the monster traffic Dumaguete has become of late, and the taxing to-the-letter appraisals of classes to face? There was also the added pressure of having found yourself a student for this particular schoolyear—you had promised, after all, an end to your days of Graduate School complacency. "I want to finish my MA this year!" you had gallantly promised everyone in your life. In your heart, you find that to be a true road map for the year ahead. You want this done, finished. If only to be able to get on with the next chapter of life. Unfinished business is always unsexy. Now, what else is there to say except to muse that change takes its time... It requires minute patience, and small charities—forgiveness, for example, for slight transgressions, like the occasional inability to wake up early every morning. Or not doing enough to complete the list you call your day. Or eating a little more than you allow yourself to, because... It takes time. It takes time. You allow yourself happiness.


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